I am standing on the mountain top | 我站在山頂上

My dead mahout friend (Somkid) once told me that I look at everything as if I was standing on the mountain top while everyone else was down the mountain. I see things more crystal clear than anyone else but I also miss all the beauties that only exist in the close-ups.

Maybe you’ve met me at some point of your life, but sooner or later I always drift away to somewhere else. I still look at all my beloved friends and beyond, except from far away. I still exist in your life but only as a ghost from that mountan you once visited; except I’m a ghost that stays with you for the rest of your hike.

Love me but don’t try to miss me. I do not belong to anyone. I do not belong to any land. I do not belong to any moment. I am a 4D being that floats along this river of time, so I cannot belong to any moment or any memory with anyone. I want to be wind. I want to be a ghost. I want to be the one seated in a cinema watching this movie called Human and Life.

我已故的象夫朋友(音譯:純潔)曾對我說,當其他人還在努力地去摸清世事時,我便已經站在山頂上看著他們。也許塵世間的繁逐在我眼中很是清楚透徹,但亦因為這樣而失去了那種因為看不清所以才存在的吸引力。

無論我們曾在甚麼時間或地方相遇過,最後還不是都隨著人海漂浮流浪至世上的不同角落?可是,雖然我看似已經去了很遠的地方,但我仍然在遠方看著你。還記得我們曾經一起坐過的那個地方嗎?如果你明天回去了,當然你不會看到我坐在那裏等你,因為我仍然坐在過去的那把長椅上。只要你找得對地方,你便會發現我未曾離開過你。

所以呀,如果你還愛著我,你根本無需要去掛念我,因為我只是一陣帶不走雲彩的風,我只是未來世界裏的一位故人。如果你想起我了,我衷心地會覺得很開心,但不要再記掛著我了。

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